在回家路上..

妈: 你架慢点, 不要那么快. 

我心里: 70-80km/h 也算快? 好, 再慢点.

妈: 停! 没有看到那边停下来了?

我心里: 哪里? 哦~距离大概可以放得下十几辆车的前面. -.-''

回到家..

妈: 你看你女儿架到几快. 常常这样吓我!

我: 我有架很快咩?

妈: 没有咩? 你女儿啊, 常常架到100km/h以上耶! 

我: ...... *心里: 什么时候的事?*

爸: 你架100km/h?! 

我: 爸, Puchong那里都塞车, 你确定回家的路上有得架那么快? 能架80km/h就偷笑了! 

妈, 爸: ......

我: *送上笑脸一个*

其实, 上大学真的不是开玩笑的.

都还没有到一个月, 我就已经很累了.

但是, 很多人都认为MONASH学生很勤劳.

进到去才发现根本不是这么一回事.

大家都在用电脑.

上Facebook, 看NBA, 看漫画, 看韩剧, 玩Tetris. 

当然嘛, 也包括我. 哈哈!

但是我们还是有勤劳的时候.

就像刚刚. 

超累的今天. 明天也是, 后天也是.

后天希望不要再下雨了! 

我很想跟狗狗们闹. :)

Not cool not cool. 

There was once he proposed right before the class started and everyone was there.

Now he again proposed during the lecture when friends were all beside.

Pretty awkward.

I did not know how to respond. 

Guess he just love the way I stunned. 

I told him it is best to tie his hair up as it looks better. 

Now, during the same lecture we have, his hair is always up.  

Really awkward. 

He always call me PAM PAMMM as loud as he could no matter where he is. 

He said he loves my name. 

Come on, it is not my original name. 

Most of all, he tells people to call me Pam or Pamela, 

And tell them not to call me Pam Pam because he's the only one who can call me like that.

Very awkward. 

Yesterday, he was looking for me and the embarrassing moment was here. 

"Where is my Pam Pam ar? Ow, there she is, PAM PAMMM!!"

He just wouldn't change and just the same when we were in CPU.

He told me in the lecture, there is a pink shirt girl very cute and pretty.

Then I started looking every single corner.

*Found one* "Hey, she's in front of you, how do you know she's cute and pretty?"

He burst out laughing and said, "Aren't you wearing pink too?"

I wanted to scream his name out loud for making fun of me but...

Lecture was going on. Sigh.

自己一个人, 不是不好.

现在我可以做我想做的, 跟谁出去都无所谓.

人人都告诉我, 不要再想了, 看开点.

他不值得, 不要为了一个不珍惜自己的人憔悴.

我没有故意要想起他.

只是, 习惯了一切.

看到身边的一切, 都曾经有他的存在.

朋友骂说,

"他当你是酒店啊? 喜欢就check in, 不喜欢就check out?"

"那你就当你自己找了个牛郎, 发生了一夜情, 隔了好久才醒过来."

"失恋没什么大不了的, 来, 我们去喝酒."

"出来喝茶, 我们陪你."

"他每次都后悔, 然后回来找你的啦, 拜托."

我知道大家在关心我.

但是, 我真的很想一个人躲起来.

想想自己的路, 自己的生活该是怎么样的?

我真的很想跑到国外去念书, 然后不回来.

奖学金根本cover不到.

母亲供不起三年.

结果呢, 我就必须留在这里, 直到明年.

我曾经试着说服他, 不要离开我.

在大庭广众哭了.

叫他抱我.

没想过, 竟被觉得丢脸, 还被推开.

他凭什么认为他把我伤的那么重, 还觉得我要爽爽的对待他?

我没有被虐待症!

通知我姐妹, 叫她陪我多点.

好意心领了, 但是我的自尊呢?

它跟心一样. 碎到一塌糊涂.

连诗雅的这首歌, 

说出了我的心声.

虽然听到会很伤心, 甚至唱的时候还哭了.

但是, 我宁愿听到麻木, 唱到麻木.

也不想要忽然听到的那种低落心情.

我真的不知道,

这次我做得对不对. 

三年, 不是三天.

万一我等了, 他却走了.

我该怎么办?

唉.

When I close my eyes I think of you

And the times we've had been through

Even though we're far apart right now

I remember back when you were here with me

How you've made my world complete

But now I'm left alone

We talked about love and hope

Wishing we could start a life our own

I wish that I could live without you

Why did you tear my heart apart

You said you'd love me from the start

All those painful things you've put me through

But I'm still loving you

I've tried to give my best to you

I don't deserve the things you do

Everything has gone to memories

I just wish I knew the truth behind the lies . 

每当夜深人静的时候, 

总是最难过的时刻. 

那些回忆就是不肯放过我.

朋友们炸了我的电话, comment, inbox messages. 

我不再怕告诉人家说, 我失恋了. 

我的确失恋了. 

唯一搞笑的是, 干哥的反应.

That stupid dumped you again? Where are you now?

担心我也是对的啦. 

上回失恋的我那么疯.

这次好多了.

只是, 要把最爱的人当成普通朋友.

谈何容易啊?

Heartbroken into pieces. Couldn't put it back into shape. 

Uni wasn't fun at all. 

Lectures are boring, tutorials are slightly better. 

Campus is large and I hardly find my classrooms. 

Well, at the same time, I was lost. 

Foods in cafeteria are nice but hell expensive. 

Bus stop lack of benches. 

Lecturers and tutors try very hard to be funny and only few of them success.

Textbooks are from Australia and costly. 

People are hardworking and they fully gather in the library. 

Orientation didn't make any sense. I don't even know how to login to the computer.

No maps, so I can't find direction and location without asking. 

People are somehow nice when you get to know them, but they look arrogant. 

Oh well, I'm one of them. -.-

Assignments are packed every week. I do not want to mention HOMEWORK. 

Timetable is ridiculous.

Due dates follow MALAYSIA TIME instead of AUSTRALIA TIME. 

What?! Why would I follow Australia time when I'm in Malaysia?

Are you fucking kidding me? Or you are just trying to be funny? 

So, this is Monash University Sunway Campus. 

It is stupid, I know. 

I cried because of missing him so much when I was only leaving Malaysia to TRAVEL. 

Haih.